In sickness and in health.

I'll never understand how some people have the ability to just carry on during an illness. This last week the entire family (wife and kids that is) and I were diagnosed with the flu. Not the dreaded Man Flu, a disease so strong that only men contract it, but the actual flu.

Needless to say the rest of the planned week did not go ahead as expected. In fact today was the first day I went back to my job. I have looked upon things in the last week and it has given me an idea about where I would like to head from here. Budget planning, and goal dreaming have kept my mind busy. While in the past I have been timid to move forward in things, it's also handy for me to know where I am, which I did not know until this evening.

So now I sit on the edge of (another) weak month. Bt this time it's not as bad as before. I have been more proactive this month than I have been in a long time. I have worked harder and studied more in the last 28 days than I have in the last 6 months. Have I lost what little momentum I have had in the last week?

Actually no. While I only had a little momentum, I did not feel sorry for myself, and accepted the cards that were dealt to me in this situation. By this time Saturday night, I should be fighting fit, where only my mind can stop me. Nothing else. The plan on me shutting my mind up, is to fly on instinct. 9 years ago I flew on pure instinct and fear. Today I fly on pure thinking and safety. As I mentioned before I need a healthy dose of both.

But for now, I am happy to have seen me keep my spirits up, and that alone may be the most important thing I can do on this journey.